I feel as a parent you are supposed to go above and beyond for your children. I can not say I'm the best mom ever but i do my best... and i do a damn good job if you ask me. ive just been feeling a little down lately though. Why you ask??
I am forced to raise my daughter alone for the next 8 years. her father was incarcerated in January of 2011 and i am doing his job and mine. I cant call child support because he is gone. the state wont help me with shit because i supposedly make too much. but they will give the hoodrat next door a life time supply of food stamps.
it breaks my heart when she wants to see him.she is in love with her daddy. i don't even wanna take her to the prison because she might take it hard once she finds out she is unable to take him with her. she did nothing to deserve her little heart to be broken. she did nothing to deserve any of this. but because of his bad decisions she has to suffer. I always thought children had it so good.... until my daughter asks today if she can see her daddy. I said not today and tears came to her eyes and she asked "BUT WHY?" ...... what the fuck am i supposed to say?
i wish i could buy her a new dad. i wish i could fill that emptiness that she is feeling in her little heart. Why are people so damn dumb??
Makenzes dad gave me money to pay my rent. 700 dollars to be exact. He does not pay child support, Does not help with daycare, and aint brought her shit since October of 2009. He keeps her on weekends if that. I did tell him i would pay him back but if i couldn't or didn't have all of the money should it be a problem??? I make sure we have food and everything is paid. I gave him $350 dollars and just gave him $260 yesterday. I only owe him $200 and he lost his mind. Not to mention I grabbed him a pair of Jordans that's cost $150 damn dollars. I couldn't believe him.
His exact words-
im not fucking with you no more.
i aint gon never give u shit.
keep the other 200 dollars u can pay yo rent with it....
you whack as hell....
and a whole bunch of other shit....
My exact words...
silence. I aint bout to argue with him ignorance is so fucking bliss.
He acting like he helped just me. No fool.. we have a child together. You helped us. He is on tether and I wake up out of my sleep sometimes and make him dinner and take it over there to where he lives. Everything he asks me to do, i do it with no problems asked.
someone please tell me if im wrong??? I will never ask him for shit else. I promise. my theory has always been you are never supposed to let a man take u to the point of no return. EVER.
Fuck him!
