Hello,
My name is The Real Mz. Jones and i think i have a problem. So i have a friend who i have been on and off with for about 7 years. not in a relationship though just sex. hes my homeboy. we watch football and basketball, talk about porn, known strippers, and have sex. I think its only been one time that i actually caught feelings for him and i quickly reminded myself that he is NOT the one to catch feelings for. i feel like it might mess our friendship up. i think when women get the "title" the like to start making all types of rules and shit......
EXAMPLE:
- NO going to the strip club without me.
- NO Hanging out late.
- Lets cuddle
- We need to spend more time together
- bae......
- bae.... (I hate when girls call their mate this)
- bae......
^^^ see where this is going? Before you know it, you will not only lose your man.... but your friend will be long gone. This is why i set my feelings aside. My older home girls say " Why have the milk, when you can have the cow?".... I told them bitches i don't have room for a cow. Ill pass on the live in dick. I'm not ready to be in a relationship yet. I'm not emotionally there. I have a real "I don't give a fuck type attitude" and would hate to permanently damage someones son.
Is there something wrong with me?
lately I've been into reading horoscopes...don't ask me why i just am. I have compared these men that i have had some type of relationship with rather that be sexual or cordial and noticed that my favorite was the Taurus male.
I recently had my fancy tickled by a Gemini male. (I'm a Gemini) the sex is so intense... everything was kissed and licked. EVERYTHANG. i loved it. but there is nothing like being mind fucked. The sex was awesome but we were so much alike that we couldn't click. we both over thought each other and we ended up bumping heads.
I was in love with a Taurus( my daughters dad). Great sex, good laughs, straight to the point, stubborn as hell and gave me whatever i wanted. I loved him. I don't know if it was the trait or him just being a man but he cheated on me and he could no longer be trusted... ole fuck ass bastid.
my first love was a Pisces. he was the most sensitive man i know... too sensitive. the sex was just okay and he sweat too much. eww. so it probably could have worked if he didn't sweat so damn much lmao. oh and i was like 16 so he kinda doesn't even count.
i think besides the Taurus my other favorite sign was the Aquarius. His independence is what turned me on the most. He felt like he had to provide as a man before he could be with anyone. I thought that was so sex. every man should think like this. maybe it was the way he ate the box though. I swear he had me gone and knows just how i like it. i find myself currently wanting to be with him and only him.... he rocks my mind body and soul. He's not ready though....and in order to be with someone completely both parties have to be ready. so i had to let his ass go to . If we are meant to be he will be back.
sometimes i wish i could mix all of these muthafuckas the way i want...
Why is it that people feel like they need to jump from relationship to relationship? Didn't you just get out of a relationship? I mean there is nothing wrong with companionship but damn can u at least wait a good 3-6 months? Can you get to know yourself? i feel like if you really loved a person it may take a while for you to get over them right? so why is it necessary to get in another relationship when u may be an emotional mess? I'm just saying. i am now a single woman and i love this shit. there are times when i wanna cuddle, but id rather just cuddle. I'm not ready to be in a relationship right now. i really don't see that shit in my near future. i have 1 person that i have sex with and he is everything i need. no stings attached. i don't have to spoon, i don't have to cook, i don't have to clean, i don't have to do shit for him, and i like it that way.
oh and did i mention that i have wayyyyyy more fun now than i did when i was in a relationship. i love my friends. they helped me get over a break-up and didn't even know it. they thought i was over that bastid but i wasn't. i still loved him, i still wanted to be with him, nothing else mattered. until one day i looked in the mirror and felt like my happiness is more important than heartache. i love my life and again i don't see a relationship happening in my near future....AND I'M COOL WITH THAT SHIT.
Me and about 8 of my friends are going to Chicago in a few weeks to tear the city down. I will be posting picks of yours truly.
oh and where the fuck is everyone?
